Hi to anyone who happens to read this.
As a strange person I am, and despite the fact that I’m jobless, I realized that I can’t find time to do... pretty much anything. I can’t continue trying to do everything at once. I can’t find time to continue making Youtube videos even though it was my dream to be recognized one day somehow. I just shot the loooong video and it’s another month ahead of me probably to try to finish it. Besides, I’m using After Effects illegally on my videos. There I said it, so you can sue me and send me to jail since I got no money to give anyway. I’m not earning any money from the videos I make so I don’t feel guilty although I may actually be. If I somehow did make money from my videos, the first thing I’d do would be to buy a license.
I can’t continue writing my D&D adventure book. I couldn't make a comeback to chess by watching Josh Waitzkin’s new tutorials. I can’t study astronomy well cause I can’t find time from everything else and there’s a good chance that I’ll fail the entrance test to Astronomy faculty. And I can’t workout anymore and I’m getting fat. No, actually I already am fat and I’m not getting any less fat these days. I already gave up writing my military journal and now I’ll give up writing blogs for a while since it’s not giving me any result at all. Why would I ever care what other people think about my country? I live in a country where stupid fucking morons are the biggest group of all, meaning we are doomed anyway. That’s why everyday more brains move away to other countries, and that’s why the government doesn’t care, because they only care about the stupid group which they can easily control. Even if I DO write any blogs, it will be quite infrequent.
Anyway, I think I should try to go to sleep again, it’s 2:20 A.M. Have I told you I got an English test tomorrow and I have to get up at 8? Only if I could sleep.
Have a nice day...